Chords for Hotel Books - "I Always Thought I Would Be Okay" *1080p HQ*

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I _ _ _ tried to [A] capture my emotions on paper and I [D] was told that I was misdirected
but maybe my mindset has just been infected by this pain infested
reappropriation of the comfort [F#m] I've developed with negligence.
Because part of
my heart followed me when [D] I finally moved out but I still feel most
connected to it when I go back home.
She's now just a three-year memory of
being addicted to caffeine and [F#m] praying I could tell her all the things I planned
on saying [D]
and the coffee stains in my journal are a reminder of when I pushed
myself into depression.
_ [A] It's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are
broken and the most sense I can make [G] of this world has slowly [D] transformed itself
from being ink in my pen to being the pain in my heart in my head and [A] I never
meant to write words that would make people feel like [D] crying I just never
wanted to write a single word where I was lying _ and [A] I have slowly tapped the
brakes on working and pushed my foot down on letting go and somehow I still
don't know if this method is [Bm] even working.
I just pray that people can find
[D] hope in the stories that [A] I'm telling because the things that got me focused
on hope [D] were her smile and that beautiful California weather but now
that the winter storms have had their way with [B] my sunshine I feel like I don't
have anything left.
[A] I feel like I can't believe in power without that
intoxicating reminder that this could [G] all be [Bm] another thing I'm believing just
[A] because I'm sick of feeling empty and alone or [D] _ _ _ _ _
[G] _ maybe I'm just [D] once again
resorting to my pathetic need to [A] overthink just to feel like anything
real is happening and having to cover every base without any blind faith just
so I can know that I'm not [Bm] acting out of my impulse to do things to benefit me
and [D] me only _ but then out of nowhere when I finally feel at peace and make sense
of all these things it's in that moment that I miss everybody who ever loved me
_ [A] but somehow the weather feels more sunny and the water in this river keeping [D] my
mind watered is finally running and [Bm] flowing and livestock is growing my
[D] heart is showing my [F#m] heart is glowing so why do I feel so lonely [A] maybe [D] because
the words I put on paper are not filling up my heart and it's still empty _ [A] and
darling I promise I meant it [D] when I said I wanted you to be happy I just
didn't want you to be happier than [G] me but I [Bm] guess I'm just not that lucky _ [D] and
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this [D#] pain may not be escaping and I may still be hurting but that's [D] okay because
at least I'm living _ and _ I [Bm] can see that someday it will be ending [D] even if it's
not today I know I'll be set [G] free so forgive me I'm usually much more
[Bm] encouraging but until then just promise me you [D] won't leave because my heart may
feel [F#m] empty _ but every [G] time I tell myself I'm alone I know that I'm [D] just lying _
because _ _ _ [B] even though my heart feels empty [D] the walls hold photos of beautiful
memories and if I hurt so bad now I guess it's just [Bm] a friendly reminder that
I'm still breathing and she [A] may not still be next to me but this hurt cuts
deep and still remembers to visit me so [Bm] heartache thank you for still believing
in me _ [D] you're not a problem [A] you're my sanity _ [D] _ _ and I love you for it
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