Chords for Ollie - more than music IV

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[Eb] _ _ Yeah.
[C] _ You ever feel [Ab] like you don't say enough while also saying too much?
[Eb] Overthink so long but [C] what people gon' probably judge too [Eb] many signs misread from ones I thought I loved.
[C] Guess the closest to your heart can deal you the worst cuts, [Ab] slightly petrified from these
lessons I should've known.
Start to question my existence, the other things [Eb] that I don't.
It's why I'm closed off, unread messages on my phone [C] and the words I wish I said all stuck
inside of my throat, [Ab] tryna let it out.
They told me breathe, trust me you'll find, on my heart rate increase, anxiety [Eb] fill my mind.
I can barely go a day without fearing my own decline, [C] so I pace around my room alone writing these lines.
[Ab] I'm defeated often, of the irony of persistence, in pursuit of happiness I confuse the [Eb] purpose of living.
It's a blue sky outside but I ain't close to finish, [C] obsessive with this fear, letting
down future children [Ab] I'm a menace, I'm an outcast, telling with all this pain.
I'm as lonely as a spell, this castaway in the rain, [Eb] built a castle on a hill, that crumbled
from all this change.
[C] Tryna put it back together, it's different but still the same, [Ab] am I making sense?
What if I'm not even making sense?
What if I drop [Eb] this song and no one relates to me in the end?
I know it all depends, I put my heartbeat through this pen, [C] I think it's heaven sent.
I don't just fake weak for a trend, [Ab] this is all I got.
_ _ Cyber beautiful, [Eb] this is all I got.
_ _ My side is beautiful, [Ab] _ _ _ _ _ cyber beautiful, [Eb] _ _ _ _ yeah.
[D] Every piece [Ab] of me inside this music, someday scattered won't get it back.
Often [Eb] think about the factory job that I started at, would I be happier?
Never checking all my social [Cm] stats, got so blinded by a dream and the things that I could
have [Ab] had, solely guided by emotions, stranded out in the open, waves crashing overboard
as my spirit [Eb] was barely coping, trouble holding on, accepted the cigarette that I'm [C] smoking.
This ain't what I planned, not even close to what I was [Ab] hoping, but there's beauty in
the struggle, something I come to find.
God [Cm] tests the strongest soldiers to keep them present in [Eb] mine, and in mine, would you stay?
Never leave from my [C] side, cause in Christ who strengthened me, I'm so powerful I could
[Ab] fly but I stumble often, I'm not as perfect as I seem.
All this [Eb] anger in my chest I keep hidden behind the scenes, a longer journey in my growth,
I'm only a human [Cm] being, more than music is precise, see what all of these lyrics mean,
[Ab] it means I'm incomplete, broken, often misunderstood.
On this lonely road we walk, never gave up on others [Eb] would, found in a lost place, done
everything that I [Cm] should just cause there's darkness in my past, it doesn't mean I'm not
[Ab] good I swear I'm trying.
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[Eb] swear I'm trying.
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I swear I'm trying. _ _ _ _ _ _
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