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[Bm] I chose to believe every word I was fed and I thought the coals on my back were a product
[G] of the lack you [Bm] left when you [G] stepped back and racked your brain for a reason to stay,
[D] but you could not seem to formulate any such thought in your head.
So you left with [Bm] nothing more than a reason you kept silent and my mind would riot, stuck
in self-perpetuated mental [E] violence and [D] dreams kept [G] private.
The ambition to fix this wish list [D] of selfless, misfit, realist missions contained within
a vision [Bm] of wishful thinking and seeking deep into a new bit of misproportioned emotions
leaking through a seeping [E] truth constructed [G] by my need to feel important when you would
look back and think of [D] all the little things you'd regret.
I just wanted you to think of me when [Bm] you'd think back to all the things you'd regret.
I spent so much time convincing myself that the rest of this [E] mess that I [D] stressed within
this [G] relationship was a product of the world's impressions, not my deep [D] desire to be needed.
And it's hard to admit, but I guess I've come to terms [Bm] with the fact that I just want to be needed.
And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed.
And [E] if that was true, [Bm] I would still be [G] smiling like you still today, but for different reasons.
I chose to [D] dismiss the possible instance that [Bm] the lips I love to kiss could form the words goodbye.
And it was a simple lie, but I told it to you like the captain of a sinking ship, [E] choosing
to believe [Bm] the bottom of the [G] ocean was a better source of oxygen.
It's so nice and I still [D] chose to believe I misinterpreted your dialect and everything
you said about it.
Your diction, your diet, tribe, posture, body language, and connotations all pointed in
[A] the same direction.
[D] The selection of contingent messages postponed until [Bm] further notice because I was [D] ashamed
to admit the problem and pretend your happiness came from me and that your happiness was important.
But we aborted the sordid truths we [A] once distorted when I [Bm] saw the shape of your dress when you wore it.
And that was enough until it wasn't.
And that's when you [D] finally felt supported.
[E] So the [Bm] others courted you and you mentally recorded and endorsed the force before the
compliments you received came in and you felt empowered enough to take [E] your final bow and
find [D] love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine.
[Bm] And that's fine because I would do the same and I would leave me not because I'm useless
and not because I'm broken, not because I'm sad and not because I'm worthless, but because
[D] I saw value in your smile [B] and not in your [D] values.
And I'm sorry.
[G] And I love you.
And that's why I can finally sleep [C#] at night because you [D] are free and you can [G] thrive.
And I'm just happy.
I got to be a part of your life.
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I'm just happy.
I got to be a part of the journey that [G] you call your life.
And I finally [A] feel fine [D] because I spent so long trying to change you, not [G] realizing I
was the one who needed to change.
I [Bm] was selfish [D] to assume you love me more than you love yourself, [G] even though I never felt the same.
And there's so many things [D] that my selfishness tried to take away, but you were the one [G] that
was the hardest to watch walk away.
[Bm] [D] But thank you for letting me be a part of everything [G] you are building and creating and
fighting truth in life.
And you are relating in [D] so much beauty.
And I love [G] you.
[D] And I'm sorry.
_ Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.
Thank you for letting me be me.
_ And thank you for setting me free and showing me love.
Showing me love in its full capacity. _ _ _ _
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