Chords for My 19th Birthday

_ I [Dm] spent my 19th birthday [D] in hospital with [Dm] my brother and my mum and I know it sounds
dumb but I felt like [Am] I lost it all, the pain's compulsory, [F] suffering's optional, Takeshi's
castle, my life's [C] got obstacles, I'm still dealing with a whole load [Dm] of stress, I see
my older brother so close to [A] the edge and not dare put a hole in my chest, [Dm] and then
they tell you home's where the heart is, but I got [D] a hole where my heart is because
I let [Dm] a hole where my heart is, never [Am] again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends,
I never [Bb] messaged again, every message I send ends up in a group chat, cause girls go and
tell all their [Dm] friends, _ _ [G] it's one of many [A] reasons why I ain't sending [Gm] DM's, look I'm gonna keep
this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake, that's why [A] I'm living free lives, I'm in GTA, I'm
in [Am] Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think [Bb] I'd
see a lay, surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake coming, I need [Am] this money like
it's EMA, you gotta separate the rats from the G's, if you can't handle cheats how the
hell you gonna [Gm] be great, I need a blazing inferno for my enemies, behind my back I know
that [Dm] everybody's censoring me, and I respond but I don't even have the time, I mean asking
Avelino couldn't help me find [Bb] the energy, I don't think my ends want the best for me,
that's why they question me, [Am] fake G checking me, fuck the road but if anybody's testing
me it's one step away like [Dm] a five a side penalty, every Santander nationwide [D] remembers me, right
pocket full [Dm] of cards I'm a referee, ain't it funny how this money that I'm [Am] getting came
from fucking PAs like I'm sleeping with a [Bb] secretary, secondly a girlfriend's obsessed
with me but that's a story for another day and [Dm] this is why love is fucked, cause you
went and put your [G] trust in her and [A] then she sent me nudes I said nah uh uh [Dm] cover up, I
aired it, certain girls [D] I can't respect, we're all nothing to [Dm] someone and that you can't
forget, so just remember when a girl's playing [C] hard to get there's probably another person
that she's trying [Dm] hard to get, _ [D] and there's probably a girl on your phone right [Dm] now that
you hardly text, that's looking for [Gm] love but [A] everybody wants what they can't touch, so
_ _ [E] _ [Gm] if you touch my money you can see what I'm about, you can ask your little sister I will
be inside your [Dm] house eating from your fridge feet up on your couch, you a little brother
butting me and sandwich spreading evenly [Bb] amounts, you think I'm playing any games, why do you
think I talk about cars, women and chains and [Am] half of the songs I make materialistic
aims, make me feel a way when I want it, when I've got it, it don't ever feel the [Gm] same,
we got different types of problems, I'm getting corporate tax from this cash that [A] I'm making
and at the same [Dm] time I need to vanquish my pagans, if you think it's dead you're mistaken
I'm [Bb] hot headed and dangerous and still living in this matrix, all I wanna do is make my
loved ones [Am] proud, in this year alone we made 300,000 but my mum won't smile because her
[Dm] son's on drought, we got different types of problems, [D] would you [Dm] know about living in a
shadow, where every single thing that you can do is being [Am] tainted cos your brother's
in a station and he's ill to the [Bb] marrow, 12 or 13 when I turn into an adult, all them
kids my age were going [Dm] team fest, when I was getting searched by a golden [Gm] retriever in
a cat A [A] prison while I'm standing on an arrow, we used to have cards and I was playing with
swords, my G went from blackjack to a blackjack [A] sparrow, I know so many [Dm] man who got a case
on their [A] head that were killed to come home, but the chances are [Bb] narrow in this world that
we live in, nobody listens, we do have thoughts but nobody's [Am] thinking and I get it, cos none
of us are trying to play the victim, any disrespect and retaliation [Gm] instant, I know a lot of man
have been dodging karma and they think it's all laughter till the bitch comes to [Dm] kiss
them, you know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 [Bb] inches,
so many man my [E] age have got PTSD [Bb] and I don't think that it's [Am] hit them, if you envision
the way that we're living, the things that we had seen, [Dm] situations that we've been in,
you would understand why I don't want to talk about my life in every song I've ever written,
I really want to help but it's out of my control and [D] jurisdiction cos a lot of road
youths have got a sickness, [Dm] mentally, _ _ _ [A] _ _ _ _ [F] _
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_ [Dm] _ _ [D] _ _ _ [Dm] look, my mummy always used to [D] tell me this,
David [Dm] listen when you're older speaking, I know man that listen to their [A] older speaking
and now they're all lifed off and they don't [Bb] know the reason, in a weird way summer is
the [Cm] coldest season, you'll get killed at a party for the [G] smallest reason, [Dm] one day you're
chilling in [G] secondary, next day your right hand's a [Dm] memory, so when I say that I'm alone
do you know [Am] the feeling, when I say the game's over do you know [Dm] the meaning, I mean that
I don't have the time [Am] for this, I need a girl but at the same time there's no [Bb] time for them,
I've got people inside and I don't [Cm] write to them, it's like I don't feel pain no [G] more,
I can't do [Dm] journeys on the train no more, [G] can't shed a tear writing on a page no more,
[Dm]
I don't wanna play games no [D] more, I don't want my friends on a [Dm] case no more, and trust me I
don't want a war and it [D] ends but it's like you wanna start it so say no more, [Bb] I'm too big for
this nonsense, I don't need [E] problems, meetings, 1.5 million ain't an [G] option, I don't need a [Dm] deal
or an option, in [G] my own neighbourhood, me Jack Benny in the [Dm] office, I don't need excel, sony,
[Am] drama, our team's faster, street, sam [Dm] carra, I got a lot of love for everyone that checks [Am] for me,
and a lot of love for certain girls [Bb] sexually, texting me saying that she [Cm] slept on me,
and definitely wishes that she [G] slept with me, _ [Dm] _ _ [G] _ _ _ [Dm] look, on another note I wanna say thanks [D] to
Cal, one of my closest from [Dm] young and we're still at it now, I remember when we learnt to play piano
[D] just to make each other jealous, who'd have thought that we would [Bb] practice now, your talents
been [E] standing out, be proud of your dream, you should [G] stand and shout, I [Dm] remember last year you
never had [D] a clue, and this year you went and did [Dm] attitude, speaking of attitude, it's only right [E] I
say sorry for my attitude, and I [Dm] ain't ever mad at you, Darrell, Manon, Fraser [A] especially, I got a
lot of things I'm dealing with [Bb] mentally, I feel down a lot and I ain't got the [Cm] energy, I need all
of your help to get the best [G] from me, there's way too [Dm] much to do, I ain't getting [G] sleep, the last
time I got arrested they arrested [Dm] me, told me a treatment [F] for a video I didn't [Am] make myself from
scratch, every lyric, every [Dm] melody, every fucking [F] beat, every little detail [Am] in the artwork and video,
everything is me, [Bb] a wonderful team and a God that I serve, [Cm] my friends and my mum, my brothers and
my girl, [G] I don't want short [Dm]-term success or a banger [G] man, a sign into a sentence getting lost in
the words, [Dm] and it's fine if you sign man it's each to their own, [A] but these clones need to know that
I'm different [Dm] from the world, don't compare me to them they couldn't beat me at my worst, [E] it don't
matter if I'm rapping or I'm singing on the verse, [Bb] _
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people don't get that I'm [Am] serious, I don't want
to play games [Dm] no more, I don't want to talk to these girls no more, I [Am] can't fuck a girl that's in it
for the fame no more, [Bb] a man can't talk on my name no more, [Cm] give it five or ten minutes till your
main [G] thing talks, she's telling me that they [Dm] don't talk no more, [G] but I'm pretty sure that his wifey
[Dm] knows more, no more no, I don't want to play no more, [D] no talks if it isn't money made [Dm] no more, no
I don't want to play no more, I don't want to play no games [Bb] no more, and I don't want to see my girl
no more, [A] cuz I don't really want to see her hurt no more, [G] my mum telling me that she's gotta stop
working [D] and I'm telling mummy you ain't gotta work [Dm] no more, no more mummy, you ain't gotta hurt no
more, [D] you ain't gotta cry in your shirt [Dm] no more, mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the
freezing [D] cold in the middle of the night for [Bb] a check no more, mummy you ain't gotta cry no more,
[E] you ain't gotta stress in the night no more, [G]
and I ain't gotta say no more, we ain't playing games [Dm] no more _
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