Chords for Colicchie " Drug Addiction Part 2 " ( Prod By Big Jerm )

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_ _ [Eb] _ Khaleesi _
[E] Know to give a testimony
_ [Ebm] First you must survive the test
[Abm] I'm feeling like I'm dying from these drugs that I injected I [Ebm] can go in either arm left or right
I'm in Bidextrous [E] my soul is desolate my spirit is defected
I [Eb] keep making wrong decisions that will never get corrected.
[Abm] I'm doing what I have to never cared about the wreckage
I [Eb] keep chasing this high, but I can't ever seem to catch it.
[E] I told you my story now
Let me go a little deeper.
[Bb] I was dealing with a chemical.
That's deadlier than ether
[Abm] I never show respect living on the verge of death [Eb] cuz this heroin will kill me smother murder on its breath
[E] I'm walking on this rope as I'm watching every step now.
[Eb] I'm living on the run.
I never sleep.
I never rest
[Abm] I'm having trouble breathing from the pressure on my chest [Eb] this anxiety is killing me suffocating from stress [E] the residents
I'm staying at is filthy.
It's a mess, but I [Dbm] can't leave until this bag is gone, and there is nothing left
So [Abm] I'm stuck feeling empty suicidal thoughts are present the [Eb] essence of my depression wants me dead without a question
[E] The shit is in my blood my whole family suffers
[Eb] My sister's getting high with me was smoking like a muffler [Abm] my mother's an alcoholic the addiction is intense [Eb] my father left in 84
We haven't seen him since [E] he chose drugs over us, and yeah, I did it
[Dbm] It's impossible to stop some of those crimes that I'm committing [Abm] I vomit in the sink every morning
I am broke the [Eb] complexion of my skin is gray looking like a ghost
[E] I guess I'll take his money him and I were never close.
[Eb] I was supposed to buy a crack, but somebody saw me
So [Abm] I never pay for nothing as I'm headed towards the door
And you [Eb] can try to come and catch me as I'm running out the store [E] all I want is drugs all I ever need is
More [Dbm] me and my sister.
We pass the needle back and forth [Abm] blood is dripping off my arms now
It's falling to the floors.
We [Eb] manipulate the light of watch that flame hit the drawer
[E] She's pushing on the stem.
I try to wait my turn [Eb] every pair of pants.
I got is covered in cigarette burns
[Abm] I'm living a life that's found never critically acclaimed [Eb] my arms are black and blue.
I try to hit another vein
[E] It's gonna take an hour why every veins collapse [Dbm] should I clean it out with bleach?
I don't even have to ask [Abm] the answer's no let it go is set in stone
[Eb] See I'm married to the needle never touching methadone [E] my moves are unpredictable my actions are erratic [Eb] and that spike is in my arm
I'm gonna die using addict
[Abm] I'm drinking alcohol until I fall apart [Eb] as the room is spinning slowly to the toilet that I crawl
[E] Let's pour another drink and it's shot after shot [Db] after shot after shot [Dbm] through this just to try my thoughts
[Abm] Everything is blurry.
I can never read the manuscript [Eb] everything.
I'm doing every decision is [E] cancerous
I would crash I could never find the landing [Eb] strip ecstasy and mushrooms together
I used to candy [Abm] flip that was back when these drugs
They were fun [Eb] now a man a cold and misery a monster I become [E] heroines my god
I [Dbm] follow orders that are strict you see I'm just a crew member
It's the captain of the set [Ab] the stem sock pull it off try and use a damn [Eb] brag
I'm feeling so alone as I'm pouring out these damn [E] bags.
I'm pulling on the belt to every vein is visible [Eb] every day
I'm overwhelmed stress living miserable [Ab] the drug game.
I'm always losing like I'm gambling.
[Eb] I see she isn't breathing
So I call another [E] ambulance with our souls no guidance no type of management [Dbm] every day is death and [E] crime
I can't fucking handle this [Abm] I'm blowing out the smoke as I'm peeing past the curtains [Eb] down my house is surrounded
I see the shadows now.
I'm nervous.
[E] Yeah, they're coming to get me.
Okay.
Maybe I'm the spirit.
I [Eb] know everyone be quiet
I'm a silent start another [Abm] noise
Feeling the void I'm truly losing my mind
[Eb] I'm using my license when I'm chopping up these lines [E] trying to stay alive is how I really spend my time
[Ab] I'm coming to guilt and shame.
Let me tell you about a friend of [Abm] mine.
She's sort of soul sort of body
She sold [Eb] everything she sold a house car even sold a wedding ring
[E] She's starting to get sick and she's turning another trick
And she [Eb] don't want to live this face sucking dick for another it [Abm] look you think it's funny put yourself in her shoes
[Eb] And imagine what it's like to have no option to choose and we're [E] so quick to judge another
But what if this song was about [Ab] your mother?
Do you think you'd understand it still?
[Abm] All I do is lie.
I never tell the truth [Eb] my neighbors see I'm sick.
So I tell him I got the flu
[E] I ran it on my car.
I needed to get [Eb] my dealer has my vehicle.
I see I'm driving by
[Abm] Track marks, I've had him since I was younger.
[Eb] I'm wearing long sleeves in the middle of the summer
[E] The paramedics took my needle spoon in both bundles.
[Dbm] Why you hitting me with no can interrupt in my supper?
[Abm] I turn it to my father.
I'm hating this isn't me.
[Ebm] I'm supposed to serve a purpose while I'm living out my dreams
[E] I turn it to my father.
I'm nauseous sick to my stomach [Eb] chaotic or narcotics.
This isn't the life
I wanted [Abm] I turn it to my father.
I'm the devil in the flesh
[Ebm] I never have confidence as I'm settling for less
[E] I turn it to my father and I hate what I become so [Ab] now I want to end my life
I'm in search of a [Abm] loaded gun feeling lost and broken.
All I ever do is hurt.
My [Eb] mother's in the other room
I'm taking money out of her purse
[E] I tried to mess the pain but it only made it worse and [Eb] I finally hit a point where the drugs would no longer work
[Abm] I'm killing myself slowly.
I just want to feel some freedom.
[Eb] My thoughts are paralyzing as I'm battling these demons
[E] I used to tell myself that [Dbm] I would be better off that I stopped listening to the voices that are inside of my head
[Abm] I want to change I need to be a son to my mother [Eb] a brother to my sister
Look, I'm tired of the struggle.
[E] My obsession has been lifted but destruction I can crave but [Eb] I'm doing what it takes
So I don't see an early grave.
[Abm] I thank God I hit a bottom now.
He carries [Eb] me
I didn't want my mother insisted.
I have to bury [E] me
I follow many times finally got my life together [Ab] cuz I kept trying never quit through every field endeavor
[Abm] Nowadays these parents they are burying their kids are [Eb] dying younger and younger than never get a chance to live
[E] I'm trying to show the world hope regardless of what I did and [Eb] that is truly why I do this it gets everything
I give I [Abm] had multiple years clean twice, but then I lost it [Eb] now my daily maintenance it is suffocated in caution
[E] I tread softly no tradition violations.
[Ab] Look I used to be a loser now my life's truly amazing
[Abm] I try to be a service you can find that in our symbol.
[Eb] I used to be shaky, but now I'm steady like a gimbal
[E] I put my hands together every night to pray.
[Eb] Yes.
I'm smoking drinking coffee relaxing with Jimmy
Hey, [Abm] I had the rightest sequel do it for our people.
[Eb] We all have our own issues, but understand that we're equal
[E] There's many days that I want to give up and use [Dbm] that my misery refunded.
I've done it.
It's nothing new now
[Abm] I'm staring at my daughter and she's altering my mood.
[Eb] She's the underlying force and everything I ever do
[E] My daughter is my everything and that'll never change.
I [Eb] can't wait until she's old enough and sees what I became
[Abm] I love my daughter, but she won't keep me clean.
See [Eb] the drugs are just a symptom now.
I'm fighting to be free
[E] I try to separate all my wants and my needs.
[Dbm] I'm working on myself.
I learned acceptance is the key
[Abm] Through it all I try to spread a positive [Eb] message of dedicated death with every breath I invested
[E] I'm constantly pushing.
I got this fire in my eyes.
[Eb] Listen all my dead friends.
This was giving me my tribe
[Abm] I try to play my part but could always be doing more.
[Eb] They're calling it a battle.
I call it a losing war
[E] We gotta come together.
My experience is real.
You [Ab] can identify with what I did relate to how I feel
[Abm] No pedestal was needed.
I am very far from drifting
We [Eb] all felt the same pain but our stories might be different [E] with any brush or paint a picture of a vim and image
[Eb] But the message doesn't have a meaning unless I live it.
[Abm] I defy the odds where miracles live in proof
[Eb] I'm alive to tell my story and I'm sharing it with you.
[E] It's God's grace and mercy the reason I'm still alive
[Dbm] I'm watching friends losing it is killing me inside [Abm] to anyone that's trying to change the life
You're my idol [Eb] life will have its ups and downs, but I'm no longer suicidal
[E] Nowadays these artists they just glorify the drug see [Eb] I'm trying to do it differently and glorify the love
[Abm] And you can judge me, but I'm proud of my accomplishments.
[Ebm] My name is Jeff Smith and I refuse to be anonymous
[E] I used to dream of living now.
I'm living my dreams [Ab] no matter what it takes.
My goal is to die clean [Abm] die clean
_ _ [Eb] No matter where my goal is to die clean [E] die clean die clean
_ [Eb] No matter what hey
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[Abm] _ _ No [Eb] matter what it takes my goal is to die clean [E] die clean die clean die clean
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