Chords for "Oh My Soul" Story Behind the Song with Mark Hall

_ _ _ [F] _ _ _
The last couple of years [Cm] _ _ _ haven't been the [Eb] easiest for you.
And I get emotional just thinking about it
because I remember the day _ _ that you [Cm] announced to the world
that you were [Eb] diagnosed with cancer.
Yeah. _ _
[F] These last couple of years have been _ different
because here's big, [Eb] strong youth pastor,
now all of a sudden leaning on the strength
of those around you.
[F] Yeah, it was _ _ _ different.
For [Eb] me, being the youth pastor,
[C] I'm the guy [Eb] that helps everybody else with their stuff.
You know, [F] I go visit you when you're sick.
I go encourage you when you're in a [Cm] hard time
and _ suddenly it's [Eb] me.
I wasn't ready for that.
I thought I was, [F] but I wasn't.
[Eb] And _ when you hear a doctor say _ [Cm] cancer, it's a scary word,
[Gm] but then when it's being said to you, _ _
[F] you don't really even hear the word cancer.
You just hear, hey, you're gonna die.
_ And that's kind of just what I heard when he said it.
_ And my doctor's a friend of [Eb] mine
and normally he _ _ just calls me.
Like he'll [Cm] do a test and call me,
hey, here's what you need to do,
you know, this and this and this.
Or he'll text me or whatever.
[Bb] _ And so normally it's text messages
[Ab] when I find out my instructions
for how I need to deal with [Eb] something.
But that day _ I was at [Gm] a funeral right after my doctor's visit _
[Cm] and I'm at the funeral and he says,
Mark, I need you to call me.
_ And [Eb] when I read that text, _ I was like,
_ _ _ something's [Bb] happening.
This is about to happen.
I [Cm] remember walking out into the lobby
and trying to call [F] him and couldn't get through.
And I went back in and I waited again
and I went back out and called.
So there was this little [Eb] moment of about _ eight minutes
that felt like about an hour, you know,
as I'm waiting to get him on the phone.
And he says, man, [Cm] there's a, you know,
they were just going in to check me out for reflux
to figure out what my stomach issues were.
And he said, man, there's a tumor in your kidney
and it's about the [Cm] size of your kidney.
_ _ And [Eb] there's a good chance that could be cancer
and that kidney is gonna have to come out.
_ _ _ And [Cm] I'm sitting in the parking lot.
[Gm] It's like I'm [Eb] talking about somebody else's life,
you know, but it was me.
So it was definitely something to [Fm] try to get my head around.
[Bb] How hard was it for you _ _ [Eb] coming to grips with the diagnosis?
I think the very first thing that popped in my [Cm] head
when he said it was, how am I gonna tell the kids?
_ How are we gonna get [Bb] the kids through this?
I just thought, maybe if I [Ab] could just get the surgery
and be done with this really [Eb] fast,
nobody would even have to know, just keep [Gm] it quiet.
You know, and Melanie [Cm] said, you know,
_ this is kind of why the church is the church.
You really kind of do need to [Ab] let people pray for you.
And-
Reminds me of [Eb] a song, maybe you've heard of it,
If We Are The [Bb] Body.
If We Are The Body, yeah.
Yeah, and so [Fm] what I really realized was it was pride.
_ [Cm] I've always _ talked to [Bb] my teenagers a lot
and dealt with the fact a lot [Fm] that sometimes
when you wanna help somebody who's in a [Ab] hard time,
we're scared that we don't know what to say. _
[C] So we will avoid them,
[Bb] because we don't know how to fix it. _ _
[Fm] But I've never been on this side of it
where [Ab] I realized sometimes when you're hurting, _
[Bb] you don't wanna hurt around people
because you don't wanna feel it, and that's pride.
_ And when we let [Ab] the body of Christ be the body of Christ
and love you where you are and just be around you,
_ _ [Eb] that's how God comforts us through each other.
Oh My Soul is a song on this new record
that [Cm] really is a story of how God walked you
through this battle with cancer. _
[Bb] _ Yeah, one of my favorite [Ab] scriptures is where David says,
[Eb] why so downcast, oh my soul?
[Gm] _ Put your hope in God.
And it's basically David [Cm] talking to himself.
And I identify with David in a lot of ways.
[Eb] He just, he was, you know, courage,
but then he'd fall on his face and he was real [Bb] about it.
That's how he prayed.
If he was mad, he [Cm] prayed mad.
If he was confused, he prayed confused.
[F] He didn't add anything to it,
just talked about life like it was
when he was [Cm] talking to God.
And that's how I've always [C] prayed.
[Eb] And in that moment in his life,
he was talking to his own soul.
He's like, what's your problem? _
Hey man, pull it together.
You [Cm] know what's true.
You know God's got you.
Why aren't [Eb] you letting your feelings
run away with you like this?
[Ab] Go back to what you [F] know.
You said all [Eb] this stuff.
You wrote all this stuff.
You believed all this [Cm] stuff.
It's still real.
Even though it's happening to you now, [Eb] it's still real.
And that struggle _ is what was going in my head
because there were feelings going [Cm] crazy.
_ _ But my [Gm] feelings, as crazy as they got,
they kept [Eb] slamming up against something solid in me.
And it was the [Fm] roots of my faith.
And there's a point [Bb] where your feelings,
the things [Eb] that you feel and fear
has to face the God that you know. _
[Cm] And in a storm, you've got to deal with what you know
more than what you feel.
And I remember [Bb] going into the office that night _
[Ab] after everything was over and nobody was around.
[Eb] And going to the office is kind of where I go
to be alone [Gm] sometimes.
And sitting down at [Cm] the keyboard
_ and the very first thing that came out of my mouth
was, oh my soul, why [Eb] are you weary?
And that's where that song started.
_ _ And [Bb] you hear in that song, [Fm] the battle going on literally.
[Cm] At one point you hear this [Bb] conversation
going back and forth.
And I think that's [Fm] where we all live.
_ Can you [Ab] share the chorus with us?
_ [Cm]
The chorus of the song to me,
[Bb] you know a lot of times when a song is inspired [Fm] by a moment,
it'll evolve as [Ab] you go.
But this one really [Bb] didn't.
It really is kind of what it was when it came out.
It's, oh my soul, [F] you're not alone.
[Ab] There's a place where fear has to face the God you know. _
_ One more [F] day, he'll make a way.
You can lay this down, [Cm] _ he'll show you how. _
And _ [Gm] it's just [Ab] knowing one day at a time,
[Eb] I can follow him through a dark place.
[Cm] And he's gonna be on the other side of it. _
[Eb] _ _ _ _ _ _